God is loving.

So often we say God is good, but what we really mean is God did something good for us.

Sometimes God does stuff that does not feel good for us.
Sometimes He does things that hurt us.
Sometimes He lets things happen that feel so completely overwhelming and not good at all.

I have had a few days of one ridiculous thing after another, and it does not feel good. It feels really crappy actually, and I lost it standing in the kitchen last night and just cried.

Not going to lie, this stretch of road coupled with people’s comments about “things being done” (so NOT done with this estate) and it being February is…developing perseverance that leads to maturity. At least that is what I keep telling myself through gritted teeth while I control the urge to throw something breakable against a wall.

So, yeah, not good. Really, not good.

And yet, God is loving.

This morning my bestie sent me the verse he gets from a Bible app.
“Ye though I walk through the valley of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and your staff comfort me.”
Because I know you are loving.

And even when things feel a whole lot of stuff that isn’t good, I know it will ultimately be okay, and I will see God’s hand in it all, and He will give me places to catch my breath and rest…because He is loving.

That’s what I have today.
It’s all I have.
But really, it’s all I need.
God is loving.

Jerri Kelley